Father Figure by James J Cudney

Father Figure

4.5 out of 5 Stars


Between the fast-paced New York City, a rural Mississippi town, and a charming Pennsylvania college campus filled with secrets, two young girls learn the consequences of growing up too quickly. Struggling to survive in a claustrophobic, unforgiving world, they embark on a journey to overcome all the pain, disappointment, and horror of their experiences.

Amalia Graeme, abused by her mother for most of her life, longs to escape her desolate hometown, connect with others, and fall in love. Contemplating an impending loss of innocence and conflicting feelings between her boyfriend and the dangerous attraction she’s developed for an older man, Amalia suffers devastating, life-altering tragedies. No matter where she turns, someone or something always steals her hope of finding happiness, protection, and love.

Brianna Porter, a sassy yet angst-ridden teenager raised in New York City, yearns to determine her life’s true purpose, conquer her fear of abandonment, and interpret an intimidating desire for her best friend, Shanelle. All the confusion stems from desperately needing to find the father whom her mother refuses to reveal, but an unexpected discovery of a journal leads Brianna to a shocking revelation about her missing parent. Unfortunately, by casting the net to find him, she’s unleashed a tragic history that was meant to stay buried and might now completely change everyone’s futures.

Through alternating chapters set two decades apart, each girl’s plight unfolds revealing the parallels between their lives and the subsequent collision that is bound to happen. In an emotional story filled with mystery, romance, and suspense, fate intervenes forcing someone to make a dreadful decision that will leave permanent scars.

My Thoughts

“Life just happens sometimes. You can’t predict it. You don’t know where it will drop you off unexpectedly. You only get to pick up the pieces when it’s all said and done.”

Fist of all, where to start?? I’m SO SAD it took me so long to read this book! (I have a feeling that I’m going to be saying that a lot in the near future…

If there is one thing that James excels at, it’s writing vivid characters. His characters are always real, flawed, and they always make you feel for them.

Now, I’m not saying he makes you like them. Take Amalia’s mother for example; in my notes I tagged her as a “dirty hag witch” and Mr. Pollardo who just has a series of !!!!!!! And a lot of language that shouldn’t be repeated in a post!

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Then there was Shanelle. She was such an amazingly supportive character! Ok, so she was too young for me. But, if she got turned down one more time I was going to leave my man, jump into the pages, and take her for myself.

James evoked such emotion in my with his characterization. I loved the parallels and yet differences between Amalia’s life and Brianna’s life; the daddy’s girl and the mama’s girl, the girl trying to find her sexuality in a Christian family who thinks everything makes you a dirty whore to trying to find your sexuality in a world that maybe isn’t ready for what you think you want. They were different, yet, still relatable to many growing up.

The couple of things that may have got to me a little bit were Brianna’s constant whining about not having a father. She seemed to only picture a father as this loving person that she would eat iced cream and share her secrets with…. I know that it was detrimental to the story (it’s really a silly thing to complain about) but, it made me want to shake Brianna and scream “NOT ALL FATHER’S ARE PERFECT AND LOVING, AND YOU HAVE YOUR MOTHER AND LENNY. STOP BEING SELFISH AND GREEDY AND GET OVER IT!!”

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The second thing was a conversation towards the end between Amalia and her roommate, Rachel, in which the emotions just felt little forced and random. It was almost as though James was trying to push for the ending at that point and it just got a little less organic.

…. Oh, and James ALMOST lost a star for mention of Nickelback in his book… But, I’m not petty enough for that. 😉

Other than that, this book was AMAZING and I’m so happy it wound up being my first pick for my failed read-a-thon (thank you, hat!) it was a touching and emotional rollercoaster!

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Author Contact

Funny enough the author, James J. Cudney IV just put up a post informing everyone how best to contact him.

Find the Post HERE

So, everyone should just go and check him out personally if you haven’t….. and if you haven’t WHY HAVEN’T YOU??

Father Figure is Best Served with a Panty Dropper Martini

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So, I came up with this way back in April… long before I had actually read this book. It was a post by the amazingly hilarious wonderful Shalini where she interviewed the author that inspired this drink. At the time James laughed and told me that I had (completely unintentionally) come up with the best drink for the book…. HE WAS SO RIGHT!! So I’m happy to share this amazing drink again!


  • 2 oz Pina Colada mix
  • 1 oz Vanilla Vodka (I had to use marshmallow vodka as it was the closest I had to vanilla in my liquor room!!)
  • 1 oz Amaretto
  • 1oz Pineapple Juice
  • 1/5 oz Lime juice

Directions (my made up directions, at least!!)

  1. Fill shaker with ice
  2. Add Pina Colada mix, Vodka and Lime Juice
  3. Shake until cold and slightly frothy
  4. Drain into glass
  5. Slowly add Amaretto pouring over the back of a spoon to layer on top
  6. Slowly add Pineapple Juice the same way
  7. Stir before drinking!

52 thoughts on “Father Figure by James J Cudney

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  1. That is always a good sign when we want to just reach in and help out those poor characters. This sounds like a great read and that drink looks amazing! I guess you have to wear a double layer of panties for this one :D.

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    1. Thanks for checking it out! I’m so glad I got to read it!! Every time I read something Jay wrote I remember what a fabulous author he is… I’m MAKING SURE that I get to “Academic Curveball” within a couple of months of release (before the next one comes out!)

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  2. Hi! I am smiling so much it hurts right now. Thank you for this fantastic review. I’m visiting Roda @Growing Self today and tomorrow in Michigan and don’t have my laptop… but as soon as I’m home I will share this everywhere!!! Xoxo

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  3. As for Nickelback, it’s all the character NOT me. Was it said in a positive or negative manner. Or is it that the name was mentioned at all?

    Yes, so many panty droppers need to be consumed here. 🙂

    I actually know what you mean about that scene. It was a last-minute add-in to tie something together so I totally get how it can feel somewhat forced. I appreciate the call-out as it helps me realize when I should stop!!! Lol

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    1. It was positive. Lol! It was on Brianna’s party play list. 😉
      I’m glad I didn’t offend you with my comment about the conversation! I always worry saying negative things… But, what’s the point of saying reviewing books if I’m not honest?? I still loved it! 💖😄

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    1. … Love… Nickelback?? I don’t know if we can be friends anymore… 😘😂😂 I’m kidding. It’s an joke between my man and I because I’m not a fan and it’s his favourite band. Lol! But, if you love realistic characters READ THIS BOOK!! So good!! I love the relationships and the characters are all so relatable (even the unlikable ones!!)

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    1. Ha ha! Ya… I was supposed to read this AGES ago (a long with a bunch of other ARCs I really need to get to!) I’m so glad I finally got to this one!
      I’m not sure what it is about Nickelback… But, I can’t stand them.. They just seem whiny to me, or something. Too much angst for me maybe? Or maybe it’s just because they’re one of my man’s favourite bands. 😉

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      1. Lolll, I think I can see it in your way😁 I don’t hate them but I’m not an ardent fan either.

        I have more ARCs than I can handle, too😂 I think we all have a bit of a control issue and it doesn’t help when it’s a soft spot, like books!

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